23rd July 2013
Today I met with the counsellor who had been recommended to me by my clinic. I was considering forgoing the suggested counselling as I was pretty confident in my decision but I wanted to do everything by the book and didn’t want there to be any suggestion that I hadn’t thought this through properly.
We had an hour and a half long session booked in and I didn’t think I’d have enough to talk about to fill the time. Surprisingly I managed to talk almost non stop.
I was worried all the questions would make me think I wasn’t strong enough to do this on my own or that it wasn’t a good decision but in fact it helped my realise that this is definitely the right choice for me.
It was good to talk out loud about things I’d been going over and over in my head and also consider some things I hadn’t thought about before. I left feeling even more confident that I could fulfil my dream this way and excited for the future.
The next step is to decide exactly when I’m going to start treatment and choose and order my donor sperm ready.
I’m going to try not to obsess too much over the next few months so I will try and limit my time on the Fertility Friends forum (an amazing, supportive and informative website with a section specially for single women trying to conceive).
Over and out x